hiding in your heart

what are you doing now
are you still the same
can't you tell how
my world's turning back
somehow?

what places have you seen
did you wander around
and remember things about me
wonderful memories abound
swimming in the sea?

how many times did you try
to search me in your dreams
then look at me in the eye
and say you're missing me
like crazy?

our minds have chosen
a future of delusions
only to be broken
by destined confusions.

where your heart admits
only with me
you'll forever commit
for we are meant to be.
finally.

Mga one-liners ng kahapon

Sa buhay natin, may mga "one-liners" mula sa mga taong mahal at minahal natin ang mananatiling nakatatak sa ating isipan. Mga linyang maaaring walang halaga para sa iba. Ngunit nagbigay naman ng kakaibang ligaya sa atin sa mga panahong nasabi nila 'yon. Lumipas man ang mga taon, mawala man sila sa ating buhay, naroon pa rin ang kanilang alaala. Bubuhayin sa mga oras na 'di inaasahan. Kay sayang balikan. Mapapangiti ka na lang kahit na ikaw ay mag-isa.

Dito natin mas mauunawaan kung bakit sa kabila ng mga kalungkutang pinagdaraanan o narasan ay patuloy tayong nagmamahal ng lubusan. Dahil sa mga tawanang hindi matutumbasan ng ano mang bagay. Masasabi natin sa ating sarili na "he/she's worth everything that's happened to me." Lupet pakinggan!

Ang sarap namang magmahal lalo na kung walang pagduda sa iyong puso na tanging ikaw rin lang ang binubulong ng sa kanya. Walang nakahadlang na balakid na mas magpapasakit sa mga pagsubok na darating. Kung maaari lang turuan ang pusong huwag dumurog ng ibang damdamin. Di sana'y wala ng masasaktan ng sobra-sobra. Manananatili ang tila isang panaginip na pagmamahalang walang hanggan.

Kaya lang "ganon talaga" - mga salitang para sa akin ay naglalaman ng lungkot at pagdurusa. Katotohanang hindi madadaya ng kahit anong pagkukunwari. Hindi man madali ang paglimot at pagbangon, ngunit asahan natin ang isa namang scientipikong katotohanan na pagkatapos ng mahabang magdamag ay masisilayan rin ang luwinag ng bukas. Unti-unti'y makakamtan ang pangako ng tunay na pag-ibig. Buksan mo ang iyong mga mata sa tunay na magmamahal o matagal ng nagmamahal sa iyo.

At ang mga one-liners ng kahapon ay hindi nariyan para magbigay ng kalungkutan kundi para magpaalala lamang ng mas maraming dahilan kung dapit ngayon ikaw ay masaya, wala ng iba.

Kaya walang rason para ito'y kalimutan. So ikaw, ano'ng paboritong one-liner mo?

the insanity of it

When you've lost everything
You learn to fight for what you want
No easily giving up
Though life seems to break apart
Including your heart.

Maybe in their eyes
You're an enemy
For standing in-between
But from what I've seen
You're just a woman who loves deeply
Hopelessly.

When there's nothing left
You cry your eyes out
Can't even shut the pain
Driving yourself insane.

You stare in a blank wall
Down in hell you fall
No way to understand
The things you left behind.

Then you try to deny
But it's not right
Gotta stop the fight
Let it all fly high.

It's not too bad to be sad
Giving your all made you fall
But again you'll stand
And you'll know
It's the only way to grow.

I'll be okay

Saw a video of this song on YOUTUBE, a soundtrack from My Bestfriend's Wedding, but used for Addison's video clips (Grey's). I loved the song. I've learned to love Addison's character on the said show, so there. I can really relate to this song. It's so me. For the ones I've deeply loved. I'll be okay. :)

I'LL BE OKAY- AMANDA MARSHALL

Verse 1
Its time to let ya go
it's time to say good-bye
there's no more excuses
no more tears to cry

there's been so many changes
i was so confused
all along you were the one
all the time i never knew

i want ya to be happy
you're my best friend
but its so hard to let ya go now
what could have been
I'll always have the memories
she'll always have you
fate has a way of changing
just when you don't want it to

Chorus
throw away the chains
let love fly away
till love comes again
I'll be okay

Verse 2
life passes so quickly
ya gotta take the time
you'll miss what really matters
you'll miss all the signs
I've spent my life searchin
for what was always there
sometimes it will be too late
sometimes it wont be fair

Chorus
Throw away the chains
Let love fly away
Till love comes again
I'll be okay

Bridge
I wont give up
I wont give in
I can't recreate
What just might have been
I know that my heart
Will find love again
Now is the time to begin

Throw away the chains
Let love fly away
Till love comes again
I'll be okay
I'll be okay
I'll be okay

Can't hold on forever baby,
Can't hold on forever baby,
Can't hold on forever baby,
I'll be okay

AIX

Para sa mga nakakaalam, ka-loka 'to:

Hanggang ngayon, "picture frame" pa rin ba ang issue?
Dati, si unrequited love. Later on, si chocolates naman.
Can't get over ba sa nakaraang baon na sa limot!
Psst! Bata pa kayo nun! Hahaha.

Kay bilis talaga ng takbo ng panahon.
Maraming bagay na ang nagbago,
mga annivs, birthdays at holidays na nagdaan.
Ngunit dito sa lungga ko, di pa rin lumilipas ang ulan.
SS yun! (as in exag ok?) :)

Well, masasabi ko lang po, tapos na yun.
Sabi nga nila, "No hard feelings."
Ganun lang talaga.
Sleazy nga lang ang trauma, kahihiyan at kung anu-ano pa...
Pero goodbye na sa mga yun.
So tita, para sa'yo 'to.
At siya sige, para na rin sa inyo.

Apology accepted.

Just forget the past and make the future last. (Sa'n nanggaling yun!?)

Nobody wins in this game.

Now look at her
Smiling like she never used to do
Living all over again
Happy to be without you.

Driving towards never-never land
Escaping the grips of loneliness
Run away from yesterday
That keeps holding on.

It's always back
Not to shed tears for
Just so never to be wrong
The way we did before.

So maybe, just stay away
I went through enough
I won't be the same
Let this be the end of the game.

Silipin ang 'yong kapalaran sa mga hula

Ako: Eh ano ho ba'ng sinasabi ng mga baraha ko?

Madame Violet: Lalake. Dalawang beses kang tatraydurin.
Huwag nang balikan ang nakaraan.
Kaibigang minamahal, hindi para sa'yo.
Nasa ibang bansa ang swerte mo.

Fate. Destiny. Serendipity. Most people are anxious to know what lies ahead. Somehow, it gives us an assurance of the future, a chance to change a coming disaster in our lives or a knowledge to control what's planned beforehand.

Alright. I admit there's a certain excitement in knowing the unknown. Sometimes it even help us realize our personality and even our goals. But it can only take us so far. We are more than what any horoscope tells about us. The comfort that the Expected brings is never a match for the Unexpected. No amount of catiousness and planning can control our destinies. I guess, this is the ultimate limitation of our Free-will. For at the end of the day, the Unexpected is what really changes our lives in ways we may never have imagined.

So whatever's happening in your life, just keep on believing...