Sunday, January 28, 2007

dead to the world

Days simply passed me by - unfeeling, unseeing, unknowing everything else except the meaningless things of the present. I've forgotten how it is to be crazy with simple happiness and even its extreme opposite, how to it is to be dying with cruel heartache. Yes, I am a breathing fool who refuses to live, laugh and be hurt again until someone special will make me forget about everything real and cynical in this world.

Please disappear from this place forever. The tears of yesterday keep on trying to reach out its hands... Though protected by such high walls and barriers, I'd rather be left alone by a past I can't change nor go back to. Memories of lies, pain and ultimate betrayal by a young love... Like a breathing fool, I lost through it all. Before, I had no fear though you were all I had. You were the death of me when you walked away. It doesn't make it easier knowing that you're gone but not happy as you wanted it to be.

I don't know your thoughts and your face anymore. There's no room for regrets. Everything's behind us now. Remember when we fell in love, for the last time. Then erase the past. Coz now we're back to being strangers at last.

N.B. I know you're long gone. I've accepted our fate. But just like the way a certain song goes, "I'll always remember the way we cared for our time". So maybe once in a while, tears would still fall on my cheeks after all.

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